Actually, I don't want to die
I finally know that I want to live on
Maybe, all along Aki has been living in your heart
Can I also join in?
Family photo
Is this girl Aki Hirose?
Yes
Other than the name
Do I also resembles her in other area?
From outside, both look very demure
But actually, the character is very head strong
But...
She is a good girl
Saku...
Can you be my father?
Can we still go fishing together?
My tears seems to be every active lately
Kazuki, go in and play
Why?
Don't ask
I only ask you once
Please tell me
If you are happy,
It should become a beautiful memory
Usually, it should be so
Is 17 years too long a time?
Will death be the same as usual?
That is why I started describing
The last few days of Aki and I
The ending of the happy moments
The crumbling of the world of love
The breath-taking smell of death
Both our... My...
Last choice
"Crying out, in the center of the world"
Marry me!
Let me be happy
Okay, your turn to write
Saku
I don't think a guy of age 16 can get married
Is it?
You always forgot the most important thing
Then how old can one get married?
18 years old
Just simply bluff our way through this
There will not be someone who will scrutinize this
We still need the approval of the parents
Just use other's handwriting and smoke out
What if this is being found out?
Aki, you still do not wish to marry me?
No
Then just write
Saku, I...
Okay, I will submit this tomorrow
Saku, that...
I fear it can't be done
Never mind
23rd of October...
Frankly speaking, the cancer medicine used this time is not working well
What does this means?
Will they have to use a stronger medicine next time?
If this can't works, will they've to use a stronger medicine?
The medicine will only gets stronger and stronger...
Please don't say this anymore
Once the medicine takes effect, I will start throwing up,
then they'll inject anti-nauseous medicine into me
If I can't sleep, they'll give me sleeping pills
Please don't say this anymore
If this goes on, she'll be killed by the medicine
I understand your feelings now
Sorry
It's okay
Will the next medicine used be effective?
What should we do if it is not effective?
Probably you have to be mentally prepared
If she tries her best now...
It will be easier in future
Do you still have time to go for any dates?
When can I stop trying?
Please write your father's name here
You really want to marry Aki Hirose?
Suke, still have to put his seal here
I forgot to bring it
Then use seal print
Seal print?
I did not bring my seal print too
Are you joking?
I forgot to bring it
Will I be scolded for simply using other's name?
You will not be exposed
Thank you Teacher! Keep up the good work!
Teacher
Can you please sign here?
Matsumoto
Do you know what is forgery?
This is not a joking matter
But, you really did not know?.
But, Aki, do you want to take a picture first?
Take a picture?
My family owns a studio
I do not know whether I can go out or not
If not, we can take it here.
Saku, you seems to change
I do not want to think of the future
Anyway, both you and I do not want to think in the negative way
Am I right?
But life is like this Everyday that was packed
Since then, we should enjoy what we do now
Anyway, we can borrow a wedding gown and suit
But won't it be exposed then?
Exposed by who?
Dad
Even if it is exposed
This kind of matters does not involve the parents
Saku
This is the problem between me and Aki
It is just like rock music...
You can enjoy rock music
But before that, you should have something to attend to, right?
Please let your daughter marry me...
Go to school quickly
Yes
He's only joking
I know we can't get married
Sorry about just now
I am alright now
What about Aki?
She does not want me to stay here all the time
What happened to you
When Aki was as small as that girl
saw a dress just like that,
do you remember that she kept asking me to buy for her?
I really don't know where she'll wear it to
I said what's the use of these dresses?
In the end,
I bought a dress with the picture of Guri & Gura for her
I think you made a right choice
In the end, Aki's dream was to be an editor for a story book
If only I have bought both of it
If only I've doted on her more
Why do you suddenly chose tomorrow?.
Tomorrow is an auspicious day
Then there's no other choices already
Tomoyo, does your family have any wedding gown and suits?
My parent's was a rented one
Monk, how about your family?
Don't you know my family? Then Suke, how about you?
I tell you...
Something happened when my parents was young
There is probably no wedding ceremony
Saku, how about your family?
I think my family is a Japanese style
Then you should ask Aki's mother
Stupid! Then Aki's father will stop us...
That's right
Wait...
Is it alright?
We won't know it if we don't try
Wedding photos
Your daughter and my son?
Of course it will only be a ceremonial one
That...
I know this is a hard request
My daughter...
may not live long
If I am Sakutarou's parents
I will stop them from taking that picture
Because I feel that the person
who lives on will have a difficult time
Is this so?
I think the person who lives on,
will want to treasure a happy moment as such
Because this is humans nature
Auntie
That...
That, I have a request
If you ask me why...
Aki
Aki, we can take pictures now
We take it tomorrow...
Aki's mum is willing to lend us the wedding gown
Also requested the doctors to let you out
Aren't you happy?
Aki, you do not need to get up
I am overjoyed
Overjoyed!
Take off the mask
Mask
Hand
You are very naggy
I'm back!
Is dad in?
That...
Suke, Monk and Tomoyo came just now
Saku, I think you must have forgotten Ryunnosake, Akiraryou and Tomoyo
What do you want to tell dad?
For you
Because I do not want oto quarrel with Dad
Dad
Tomorrow I want to take a wedding photo
Probably you are not interested in my wedding gown and suit
But I will try my best to dress smartly
I will also gel my hair
This is the only thing I can do now
I hope to let dad see this
This is the tape by someone who wants to do his best
I should say the time and venue
Then it'll let others felt our sincerity
Useless!
Saku
I had a dream
I dreamt that Aki was very healthy
Come up I don't want
But I was ill
But, it was just a dream...
I understand that it was just a dream
But...
That's why I did not want to wake up from the dream
I wish to continue this dream forever
Saku
You really have the guts!
Good morning!
Aki
Does this look nice?
Your tie is slanted
It can't be adjusted back
I'll go wash my face
I heard that this is your gown Yes
it's really beautiful
Don't simply touch
What are you doing?
Fumiko, don't simply touch it
Everyone is here
Aki too...
I am really very blessed
Okay, Look this way
There'll be dove flying out
I'm going to take the photo now
Aki, hold on to his arms
okay, I am going to take the photo now
Saku, smile
Good
Good, taken
Good
I am happy until I felt that I am in dreamland
Everyone, please smile
1, 2, 3...
Thank you, Hirose
Teacher, haven't you given up hope on marriage?
Please throw the flower here
No, you should come an grab it
Very beautiful...
What happened?
I haven't seen it for a long time
From that day onwards,
I've been starting to take pictures of the sky
sky?
Because you can't see the sky from the ward
You are really romantic
But Aki...
That is why...
Aki stretched out her hand
towards the sky...
Aki's condition suddenly worsen
Like the day the sky was tinted with blood
Aki
Your phone...
is ringing
Mum
Hold my hand
I felt that I may not be able to wake up
Aki, you are having a fever!
Can I see her now?.
The medicine used now is stronger as she is still having a fever
Is it?
Also as she also felt a bit deaf
Her mind is also not stable
Deaf?
Seems like always hearing the ringing of the telephone
Telephone?
The ringing sound of the telephone
Aki, I really did not hear anything
Saku
Sorry
This seems to be the only tape that she recorded
Please listen to it
Please give this to her too
Thank you, I think Aki will be very happy!
Good bye
Saku
Thank you for always giving me pictures of the sky
Although the medicine used now is very strong,
the medicine should be more effective
If only we can survive this trial,
it definitely can destroy the cancerous cells
So...
Saku, please don't worry about me
From that day onwards,
I can only hear Aki's voice via recorded tape
Saku
Thank you for always giving me pictures of the sky
Everyday
Morning
Afternoon
Night's...
Did you go to school?
I have finally finish reading that book on the natives of Australia
In the world of the natives
All things have their reasons to be in this world
Calamities, war, death...
In our world.
Things that seems negative is also the same
That's why, I think my illness
Also has it's meaning
If we regard my illness as...
sorrow, pain, loneliness...
It must be the lack of in-depth understanding
Am I right, Saku?
Saku
Life
What does life means?
Death
What then does death means?
Sometimes
I can't differentiate whether I'm living or not
Saku
Saku, my voice...
Can you hear it?
Aki, Aki, what happened?
I... going crazy
Me too
Aki, let me see...
Wait
Please come in
Aki
Because it is too troublesome
I shaved everything
Did you get a fright?
Definitely...
Got a big fright!
Why are you crying?
Because Aki did not cry...
Saku
One kiss...
Can I give you a kiss?
Can Aki make it through?
Her body has already reached the limit
Tomorrow we have to lessen the medicine dosage
How about after that?
Maybe there will be a miracle pill
Maybe
Saku
I had a dream last night
Telephone...
is ringing
After I walk towards you
I saw the blue sky
That must be the sky of the Honolulu
We must go there together in future!
Saku
I would like to go and take a look at the sky
What exactly is hope?
If this is the last stop of life,
What exactly is utter disappointment?
I would like to see the world's...
The brightest sky
What is the meaning of life?
What is the meaning of death?
What is sanity? What is crazy?
I already...
I already can't differentiate them clearly
But...
If this is Aki's wish
I will let her see the blue sky
Let Aki rest in peace
Let her see the most beautiful sky...
I have decided to let her die in the happiness
That was what I was thinking
Though I know she'll not be able to survive,
I still brought her out of the hospital
If she continue to stay in the hospital
She may be able to live on for one more year
4 years... 5 years... If she can live on
She may be able to go for bone marrow transplantation
Maybe she still have that possibility of that future
I will not ask you anymore
But, if you still hope to continue...
I am willing to listen to you
I am more relaxed now
It must have been moved to her fragile shoulder
But I am still not able to understand this kind of gentleness
I don't wish to lose it again
Furthermore, I want to treasure this gentleness
Let's meet in Tokyo
Call me when you come back
Saku, will you really come back?
I will go back
I know I have to scatter Aki's ashes
It is not to forget her...
Saku, let's go back...
Kazuki
1987, I wasn't able to save the only girl I love
1991, Japan's Bone Marrow Bank was set up